There always have been a special rhythm, or evdn better to say an emotional ride of my work during cycling grand tours. Years after years I always tried to be prepared before the race, only to get frustrated on the very first weekend that it does not work. People migh have diligently visited my website a week or two before the start of the race, but instead of increasing, the visitors’ numbers just dropped suddenly.
There is a simple explanation of course, the big sport and news (and sportnews) websites increasing their content sharing on the topic, and this is a competition, of course, to big for me.
So, my frustration usually drove my mood into the basement, during the “delicate days” of the second week (I just wrote about it here, scroll down it’s in the middle of the post) I already hate the whole thing and see it as an obstacle, an annoying distraction from what I really want to do.
Then during the third week the numbers are much much better, and now I start feeling bad because only a few days left. (And this stupid illusuon made me do it again and again but in a wrong way earning no joy, only frustration.)
But the truth is, I just realised it on the other day, that as a creator of a small project, I should have always focus on the third week. Even during the first two weeks I should have created content strengthening the posts are about the last few days.
Anyway, there are onmy three attemps to left, the three frwnd tours of the year 2025, and then it’s over. I really have to stop to drive myself crazy about a project I permanently fail. Failure itself isn’t a bad thing, you can learn a lot of it, but this one js too much it really costs me too much creative energy, for what? For nothing!